It's been a weird week
It's been a tough week for me. It all started when I stupidly ate some ketchup with sweet potato chunks (with skin on) and the very next day I woke up with the worst fatigue. Ketchup is tomato which is a nightshade, which can aggravate autoimmune disease. I also had joint pain all over. It's been a while since I had a flare like that. It lasted about four days, too. It was crazy. I'm still not feeling totally like myself yet. But I definitely do not feel as bad as I did! I was scared. I believe I also had a small fever because I had chills and everything looked weird, kind of like how when you have a fever everything feels fuzzy.
But! I didn't let it get me down. I didn't stay in bed all day (well, on one day I did, but I got up and still did things off and on) and I got myself dressed and thanked God I was alive. I was discouraged however because I started to wonder if my diet can really heal me. What if I get worse and end up in a hospital or on dangerous medication? How long can I go without getting a proper diagnosis? How can I get my family to listen to me and believe me? It wore me down a bit. And with all the terrible news stories that happened last week, it was just a sucky week.
So, what did I do to get me through? I began to pump more green smoothies than usual, even though I didn't like the taste. I had to plug my nose sometimes! I knew I had to get back to eating more raw. I have to. I think I can still eat beans, but just not all day everyday like how I have been. I have to make greens the main star of my diet, and I wasn't doing that. Rice and beans just tasted SO much better, and I got caught up in eating for taste and neglected to eat living foods and smoothies. I was only having one smoothie a day for breakfast and then pretty much chomped on beans and rice for the rest of the day. If I want to start feeling better, I have to eat like it.
Yesterday I woke up earlier than usual. A lot of things went on at my house. I went grocery shopping with my dad. I was really nervous about that because since I was flaring up, I was scared I was going to feel like passing out in the store. Surprisingly I didn't, and I never felt once like I would. I prayed for God to give me strength and to not be afraid--and He most definitely helped me! On the way there, I came up with a nice mantra that helped me with my anxiety: "Worrying about something doesn't make it any easier, it only makes it harder."
I'm so tired today. I need to study for science but I just kept yawning so I crawled back into bed and thought I'd write up a blog post. I can't tell if my perpetual sleepiness is autoimmune fatigue or if it is genuine sleepiness. I might try to work out today lightly if I can.
But! I didn't let it get me down. I didn't stay in bed all day (well, on one day I did, but I got up and still did things off and on) and I got myself dressed and thanked God I was alive. I was discouraged however because I started to wonder if my diet can really heal me. What if I get worse and end up in a hospital or on dangerous medication? How long can I go without getting a proper diagnosis? How can I get my family to listen to me and believe me? It wore me down a bit. And with all the terrible news stories that happened last week, it was just a sucky week.
So, what did I do to get me through? I began to pump more green smoothies than usual, even though I didn't like the taste. I had to plug my nose sometimes! I knew I had to get back to eating more raw. I have to. I think I can still eat beans, but just not all day everyday like how I have been. I have to make greens the main star of my diet, and I wasn't doing that. Rice and beans just tasted SO much better, and I got caught up in eating for taste and neglected to eat living foods and smoothies. I was only having one smoothie a day for breakfast and then pretty much chomped on beans and rice for the rest of the day. If I want to start feeling better, I have to eat like it.
Yesterday I woke up earlier than usual. A lot of things went on at my house. I went grocery shopping with my dad. I was really nervous about that because since I was flaring up, I was scared I was going to feel like passing out in the store. Surprisingly I didn't, and I never felt once like I would. I prayed for God to give me strength and to not be afraid--and He most definitely helped me! On the way there, I came up with a nice mantra that helped me with my anxiety: "Worrying about something doesn't make it any easier, it only makes it harder."
I'm so tired today. I need to study for science but I just kept yawning so I crawled back into bed and thought I'd write up a blog post. I can't tell if my perpetual sleepiness is autoimmune fatigue or if it is genuine sleepiness. I might try to work out today lightly if I can.
Hello Jess. I am a Pastor from Mumbai, India. I am glad I have come across your profile and the blog post on the blogger because of who you are in the Lord Jesus Christ as a young christian. I did visit your other blogs posts too but found this blog post which is the recent one. I am blessed and feel privileged and honored to get connected with you as well as know you thorugh your profile on the blogger and the blog post. I love getting connected with the poeople of God around the globe to be encouraged, strengthened and praying for one another. I have been in the Pastoral ministry for last 37yrs in this great city of Mumbai a city with a great contrast where richest of rich and the poorest of poor live. We reach out to the poorest of poor with the love of Christ to bring healing to the brokenhearted. We encourage young and the adults from the west to come to work with us during their vacation time. We would love to have you come to Mumbai to work with us during your vacation time. I am sure you will have a life changing experience. My email id is: dhwankhede(at)gmail(dot)com and my name is Diwakar Wankhede. Looking forward to hear from you very soon. God's richedst blessings on you, your family and friends. It is my prayer that may the Lord let your dream to tell others of Him come ture by going on a mission field like this. God willing I will be coming to the United States in the month of September. I would love to stop by your place and meet other friends of yours will have their interest in the missions.
ReplyDeleteHello. Thank you very much for your offer. I would love to be able to do something such as this but at the moment I am battling a mild autoimmune illness and must get better before I can do something as big as that. I hope if God wills it, I will get better and be able to go to India someday. God bless you and thank you for your offer--I truly appreciate it
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